I have had so many musicians and artists tell me they regret putting their music dreams on hold while facing the responsibilities of everyday life; the bills that need to be paid, food on the table, etc. There is nothing wrong with taking a ‘real job’ in order to make a living. The trick is keeping work, family and music in balance. For many years I turned my back on music and live performance, and climbed that career ladder. With each promotion came more money. Yet with all my rationale about how I was making the quality of life better for everyone around me, nothing ever seemed to fill the void that was left in my heart when I walked away from full-time music and ministry.
Like most people on the planet, I find myself analyzing what happened to me in my past, and maybe dwelling a little too much on the downside of hindsight. And although things weren’t always ideal, I have learned not to beat myself up about it, and I now believe life played out like it did, for good reasons. We can only play the game we are in, and play it as craftily as we can, with the cards we are dealt. During my “working years”, I was gifted with many opportunities to grow, trips around the world and a beautiful collective family. Those were, and are, my best cards. Yet of equal importance are the wild cards; those cards that make up the winning hand of a songwriter: long-forgotten dreams, lost years, failures, heartaches, loss of friends and family, awkward relationships, tragedies, misunderstandings, tearing and healing, disappointments, tears. I am truly grateful for every pitfall, blunder, mishap and tragedy that came my way. In hindsight, I can now see that God had to humble me before I could be of any use to Him.